Current mood:

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posting from work:

- i am getting antsy because the SQL delete statement i am running has been running for 25 minutes already. it should not be taking this long. i fear i might have destroyed production data. ohnoes. critical tickets *cry*

- i'm excited to go home and figure out how to set up an ssh tunnel between my laptop connected to the office network and my pc at home. i want to be able to check on my rohan online bot from the office. lol.

- you never completely know a person. sometimes you think you do, and then 3 years later you realize he's been lying about a certain character trait/attribute regardless of whether he meant to or not, and you're just flabbergasted at the deception.

- my defenses are currently up. but i'm still lonely. i hope i can bounce from this sooner, if i ever will.

- hinawaan ako ni arts ng ubo. sabi nya sakin kanina sa ym, "pano ka nahawa di naman kita hinalikan?"; sabi ko sa kanya "sana nga hinalikan mo na lang ako para sulit tong ubo."; natawa lang si gago. tapos nag emo-emo na bakit daw yung gusto nya hindi nya nakukuha. hay nako. tangena. sabi ko sa kanya ganyan na talaga ang trend, na ako nga nasa ganung posisyon din. tinanong nya ako kung sino daw yung gusto ko na di ko makuha. parang gago. di nya alam sya yun. the cosmic irony of life nga naman.