im sitting in my usual chair at the office... and i am afraid that i am about to do something extremely embarassing.

i am about to cry. out of the blue. in the middle of the goddamn fucking office floor. at 4:58AM.

i want to jump out of the window.

and disappear.

i want to escape from this life.

in this second, there are a hundred moments
each moment a lifetime
of waiting for sunset, and night, and the new day

the world is turning too slow; i see
every drop falling
from your eyes

every word you say
the movement of your mouth, the curve of your lips
and the invisible vibration of air
as it kisses my skin

you only see: what separates us
are the millions of miles i have to travel
when every step i take is a question of sanity
and every inch closer is the answer
that you never asked

but you are still
walking away from me

and here i am, trapped, helpless
in this instant, in this perfect bliss
of you, and me, and eternity

and when the seconds
are thawed out by the coming of sun
there is nothing left
but the memories
distilled in the scent
left behind by your cologne

i have subdued time, and bent space
trying to make this last. forever.